Here today, gone today.

I have just made the most expensive phone call I have ever made. In the space of what must of been only 2-3 minutes I have spent just over 10 grand. (I've never spent that much on anything before) but at least now the student loan from my 3 years at uni is all payed off and I'm debt free. Hurrah!

your house is sold

you know, recently i've really been wishing that just once in all these years i'd rung you up and asked your advice. and now i cant.

you kept saying "dont end up like me" but what if i cant help it?

every week we'd walk past and you'd say how much you hated the place and how much you were dreading being there in the morning. i never said, but i was feeling the same way about somewhere, and it made me feel slightly better that i wasn't the only one hating where i was going.

'mia' again

so i kinda went 'missing in action' again there for a bit

i still dont know whether to go back to uni. i think i'm probably prefering it out of all my options at the moment, but im planning on seriously thinking through all the pro's and con's of things sometime soon.

had a lot to sort out lately. the sale of dad's house finally went through, a couple of days ago i had to go down to sign the final contracts, so now it's just a matter of waiting for the money to come through before i can start to tie things up.

i realised tonight that i have left a lot of things behind me. not everything of course, but i have certainly dumped a whole load of sh*t and i think thats mainly because of a certain someone who has given me some self belief back.

so all in all, as things stand right here and right now, nothing seems too bad at the moment. it's a nice feeling :)

(ack, need to get out of the habit of using all lowercase letters ack ack ack)