i don't know

i don't know whether to or not. i mean, it was good. really good, but maybe it was one of those things that are never quite as good again?

if everything works out, it will be ace, but if they don't then it could get all messy again, and that's not cool. especially not now when summer is just days away.

not for the first time i've been quite unsure of what to do. lol :D

To Sam

Hey,

It was really nice yesterday, I'm sure you would of liked to be there. Maybe you were? I think they're both going to be really happy together which is really good. I think Daz's son took a liking to me, after each course he'd come over and stick things on my back, and I'd do the same to him.

I miss you and I wish you were still around.


Please come back?


Happy Father's Day. I hope you've had a nice day wherever you are.

I was thinking about when I was little earlier, and we'd take a football up to the fields, or go and walk down the valley and stop off to watch the rabbits.


I miss you Dad. Happy Father's Day.

R.I.P.

I really did prefer it when I didn't feel like this.

I don't know why I care so much when I shouldn't care at all.

I don't know why I care so much when you don't care at all.

For yourself or for me.


I guess the simple fact is that I'm still so fucking hung up on you. The thing is though, I'm not even sure I want to move on.


I could spend my whole life hoping for you to change your mind.


You're only human. But in my eyes you're the most wonderful princess.


just get the fuck out of my head. please. please.

i had a great night last night

i went out last night and it was the best night i've had for a long time. i laughed so much, partly because things seemed so funny, partly because of something else. it was so damn great to talk with G again, like we used to back in college. almost like the last 5 years werent there.

went into the bar and saw some other friends there aswell who i wasnt expecting to see, so that was cool - stuff like that never seems to happen to me, so when it does it makes things seem extra good.

two tables full of friendly faces, the warm summer evening, lots of beers, lots of laughter and a pocket full of ****. what more could a boy want?

got to admit im feeling it a bit today, but it was so worth it.

had a nice drive over to a big shopping centre this afternoon and bought call of duty 4 - i've been wanting to get it since it was released but never did. i decided to treat myself. i thought i deserved it.

and for once i don't give a damn what you think. today whatever i think is right. so agree with me, or **** off.

im going out again later tonight. theres talk of an outing on sunday too. the group (theres a fair few of us who all live locally and get on so well, i've known these guys for the last 10 years or so) sitting in a field enjoying the sun and getting smashed.

im getting a lot of work at the moment too, so im feeling quite rich.

ahh i like this being positive vibe, it's damn good.

spoke to J last week, it was really nice to catch up with her again. also been speaking to P quite a lot. she said some nice things that she really didnt have to say, so it was really moving to hear them said.

i need to nurse my head some more before tonight!