i sabotaged myself with Rachael.

i sabotaged myself with Pheeb.

i sabotaged myself with Laura.

i sabotaged myself with Lauren.

i sabotaged myself with Lauren.

i sabotaged myself with Charlotte.

i sabotaged myself with Heather.


there is a recurring pattern in my behaviour. i tried my best to get in the way of letting you be the one that got away - but i did not do a very good job.

i miss the way you were. i'm not sure i would recognise you today. so i keep who you were in my head. and think about you endlessly.