hey, alright i've maybe had a bit too much to drink, but lets just roll with it ok, might make things a bit more interesting. i get bogged down in ruts too often, so lets pretend it's something out of the ordinary and new and exciting. you know, like those other people yeah. just our little secret for as long as it takes me to type this out. cool? cool :)

ok, so it was the funeral of an old family friend today. yet again had to get dolled up in a suit and tie and go to church. im really sick of funerals. WILL PEOPLE PLEASE STOP DYING? to be fair though it's the first i've been to this year. a much better year than the last few years. meh

probably fucked up a friendship because i wasnt really around when she needed me to be, always assuming that i was needed that is, and i presume that i actually wasnt, but its nice to kid yourself every now and again. so yeah. 0-1 there

probably fucked up another friendship cos of stuff i coudlnt have control over. 0-2 there.

honestly, im well sick of this.

back to the grindstone is it? looks like. was nice to be elevated for a while though. bit of a break, but everyone needs to come back off holiday sometime or another.

i should go before i really start talking about shit i shouldnt. i have spirits in the fridge but no mixers. looks like it will be going down neat tonight