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the woman i used to work for once said that if i was any more laid back then i'd fall over. one of the guys from the ford forum told me i was one of the most laid back people he knew.

dunno how i managed to give off that impression because most of the time it could not be further than the truth. maybe i'm like a duck, all calm and peaceful above the water, but under the water a combination of energy and movement.

i can feel the coils getting more and more tightly wound inside. my december deadline is really starting to loom on the horizon now, and i'm scared it wont be ready in time. when i'm like this even little things niggle at me, but at the end of the day they don't matter and i know they don't but that doesn't stop me stressing about them.

i should stop chasing perfection because it's a concept that doesn't exist, just a carrot on the end of a stick, but i really don't want to be sitting in the presentation looking at the other projects and wishing i had just had the time to do ......

to be fair though i'm on track and i think i sort of know i am. i'll be a lot happier in a couple of weeks when hopefully everything is up and running and playable (to an extent)

had a bit of an ebay binge last night. probably shouldn't, but criminal macabre is hard to resist.