i don't understand how you can do that, and more to the point not be bothered by it. how is this not bothering you? i really don't get it. maybe i need to take another look at my outlook. surely i can't be that wrong? although maybe so, when you see so much going against what you believe in, there comes a time when you have to ask whether its the 99% who are fucked up, or the 1%. i think i don't understand the whole 'water off a ducks back' thing. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU THAT YOU DON'T CARE? crippled by guilt and disappointment. its a 24 hour fucking party over there. doesn't make sense to me. never has made sense to me. i'm returning to my ultra-pessimistic views. i think i was right the first time.