id like it how it was

well today wasn't quite what it had the potential to be. but it's just one of those things. i said i was going to try and look at it in a positive way: there's no real reason for it that i could have changed, that's just the way it played out. it was a coin flip. and over the long run you will always get around about the same number of heads as tails. win some. lose some. no big deal.

don't get me wrong it still wasn't a bad day. im no worse off than last week, so it can't be that bad. what i really wanted to say was that i think i'd like it to go back how it was. seems weird being so disconnected.

i also figure L has found someone else now. i hope he makes her happy, she deserves that after putting up with my shit for so long. we've not talked for ages either...seems to be something of a pattern forming here right? although i think this one was my fault.

i hope they are good together, and i hope he realises how lucky he is.